The news of your friend is very unfortunate

I'm glad to hear things are getting better even if slowly.
I've briefly thought of suicide but to be honest several factors detered me. One being that it is indeed very selfish. What if I am to help someone (perhaps someone I love) but instead am now dead and can't help them. And other than that, if something terrible like that does happen, I just wouldn't want to miss it!! This will be the single largest event in recorded human history, I'd love to be a spectator at least for some of it! Now if I'm in a ditch dying of dehydration and starvation, suicide might be more plausible (though I don't think I could do it even then just out of sheer curiosity of what could happen next or at least the comfort of leaving it in "God's" hands).
Either way, I'm sorry to hear of such an event especially being spurred by a movie of all things. A depressing outlook, but one that prepared me for reality is you're born, you dodge death throughout your whole life (who knows how many times you were one minute away from being in a fatal accident etc), you struggle to meet your needs while dodging death, then if your lucky enough death only catches you after many many years. Also summed up as you're born, you struggle, then you die. Depressing only if you fear death though
